The Ex Factor.
No doubt my gasp of shock and horror could be heard across the city. I was staring at an email from my ex. It had been over a year. The subject was “Hello”.
“Hello” is certainly better than “You’re evil and I hope you’re eaten alive by worms”.
But it can still be frightening.
I decided to double-click my way into the unknown.
Surprisingly, it was a friendly letter. It covered the basics about work, life, and family. David said a friend of his had seen me at a bar a few weeks ago and he wanted to say ‘hi’.
He said he missed me.
The words sat flatly on the page.
My mouth still gaped open.
“He what?!!! What’d it say?” Lily gasped. Lily and I had been friends for over a decade. She was part of the group of gals sitting at the table in a swanky DC restaurant.
“What are you going to do? Will you write back?” questioned Meg.
“Should I?” I asked.
Truth is, my response letter was sitting in saved mail. I was waiting for advice before hitting ‘send’.
“Do you want to see him?” Stephanie wondered.
“I don’t know. Should I?” I asked again.
“The fact is that you broke up for a reason,” Carla stated. “You’re never going to get what you want out the relationship. It’s a waste of time. Don’t do it.”
Carla is a friend that every girl should have. She always gives it to you straight, even if you don’t want to hear it.
Tonight I needed her.
“But maybe it would be nice to be friends, ya know-keep in touch?” I suggested.
“Nope. You don’t want to be with him or else you would.”
The vision of David and I holding hands skipping through daisies and laughing about old times suddenly vanished. It wasn't going to happen.
Carla was right.
Case closed.
I’ve saved the email. And maybe one day I’ll think about reopening it. At any time I can read over the letter and feel comfort in the update. But the fact is when it comes to past relationships there will always be loose ends. No email, lunch date, or phone conversation will ever offer enough satisfaction.
For me, it’s hard not to fix the past. But I know I’ll always get better results when I work on the future.
“Hello” is certainly better than “You’re evil and I hope you’re eaten alive by worms”.
But it can still be frightening.
I decided to double-click my way into the unknown.
Surprisingly, it was a friendly letter. It covered the basics about work, life, and family. David said a friend of his had seen me at a bar a few weeks ago and he wanted to say ‘hi’.
He said he missed me.
The words sat flatly on the page.
My mouth still gaped open.
“He what?!!! What’d it say?” Lily gasped. Lily and I had been friends for over a decade. She was part of the group of gals sitting at the table in a swanky DC restaurant.
“What are you going to do? Will you write back?” questioned Meg.
“Should I?” I asked.
Truth is, my response letter was sitting in saved mail. I was waiting for advice before hitting ‘send’.
“Do you want to see him?” Stephanie wondered.
“I don’t know. Should I?” I asked again.
“The fact is that you broke up for a reason,” Carla stated. “You’re never going to get what you want out the relationship. It’s a waste of time. Don’t do it.”
Carla is a friend that every girl should have. She always gives it to you straight, even if you don’t want to hear it.
Tonight I needed her.
“But maybe it would be nice to be friends, ya know-keep in touch?” I suggested.
“Nope. You don’t want to be with him or else you would.”
The vision of David and I holding hands skipping through daisies and laughing about old times suddenly vanished. It wasn't going to happen.
Carla was right.
Case closed.
I’ve saved the email. And maybe one day I’ll think about reopening it. At any time I can read over the letter and feel comfort in the update. But the fact is when it comes to past relationships there will always be loose ends. No email, lunch date, or phone conversation will ever offer enough satisfaction.
For me, it’s hard not to fix the past. But I know I’ll always get better results when I work on the future.
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